I just feel super alone and scared and I really don’t know what to do or who to turn to. I just hate feeling like this and don’t know how to make it stop. I have managed not to self harm for a while now and I really don’t want to relapse. When will this end?
I just can’t cope at all and I just wish I knew what I was supposed to do and that I had somewhere to turn to !
My anxiety levels are through the roof, and my mood is so low that I just don’t want to do anything!
I’ve managed a couple of weeks without self harm which is a long time for me but my cravings for it are so strong, especially the craving to cut my face, which I obviously shouldn’t do.
I feel fatter than ever, although I’ve lost weight recently. I just don’t want to eat at all. But in the same way I feel compelled to binge, like majorly binge. I feel when I start eating I just won’t be able to stop.
I’ve also been in so much pain for no real reason, like my back and shoulders just hurt so much!
I just hate everything at the moment and I’m freaking out about university, I so want to ask my doctor for help but I fear that I would fail my occupational health check and be kicked off my uni course before I even start it…
Has anyone here ever had an occupational health check and could tell me how it works?
Has anyone ever been turned down from a course/ job because of anxiety, self harm etc?
Feeling so down tonight because of the binge I had today.
I wish I was thinner though, like I always feel comforted by being boney :/
I wish I wasn’t so ugly and pathetic! :(