I just feel super alone and scared and I really don’t know what to do or who to turn to. I just hate feeling like this and don’t know how to make it stop. I have managed not to self harm for a while now and I really don’t want to relapse. When will this end?
I just can’t cope at all and I just wish I knew what I was supposed to do and that I had somewhere to turn to !
My anxiety levels are through the roof, and my mood is so low that I just don’t want to do anything!
I’ve managed a couple of weeks without self harm which is a long time for me but my cravings for it are so strong, especially the craving to cut my face, which I obviously shouldn’t do.
I feel fatter than ever, although I’ve lost weight recently. I just don’t want to eat at all. But in the same way I feel compelled to binge, like majorly binge. I feel when I start eating I just won’t be able to stop.
I’ve also been in so much pain for no real reason, like my back and shoulders just hurt so much!
I just hate everything at the moment and I’m freaking out about university, I so want to ask my doctor for help but I fear that I would fail my occupational health check and be kicked off my uni course before I even start it…
Has anyone here ever had an occupational health check and could tell me how it works?
Has anyone ever been turned down from a course/ job because of anxiety, self harm etc?
Feeling so down tonight because of the binge I had today.
I wish I was thinner though, like I always feel comforted by being boney :/
I wish I wasn’t so ugly and pathetic! :(
The best way to dehumanize someone while claiming you’re not is to believe you are just the same. You erase their experiences and perspective, their struggles and obstacles, their unique way of having to deal with those things in a world that also erases them. With the words, ‘but humans are humans’ or the bullshit dramatics of ‘we all bleed red’ normal people can simply pretend that if we all did things the way they did, then everything would work out okay. But, yes, we all bleed red but you don’t treat a papercut the same way you treat a gash, you don’t treat an infected wound the same way you treat one that isn’t, you don’t treat a wound to the leg the same way you treat a wound to the gut. You are not acknowledging someone’s personhood when you ignore the very things that make their lives different than yours, and when you refuse to understand that their circumstances have given them their own perspective that is just as valid as yours. More valid in fact – their perspective about their experiences that you haven’t been through is far more valid than anything you could ever think about it.
